Why Suicide?

November 8, 2018.

Around 6am.

A young girl, aged 17 tried crossing the railway but she froze. She saw the light from the train. She heard the noise of that incoming train, yet she just stood there.

There were rumors about her mother passed away last 2017 and her grandmother passed away recently. Which is why her father came home from overseas. Her father asked her not to go to school and just spend the day with him, she refused. Rode a tricycle, paid their fare, and walk on… Thing is, she has her earphones on her, probably plays a little loud, did not realize that it will cause her her life.

Some said that it seemed as if she already thought about killing herself this day. I really don’t know. I tried checking her Instagram account but only has limited access. Rumors also surfaced that her deadline was until November 11, 2018.  Guess we never have to wait for that day.

I have been depressed before. I have thought of killing myself, not once. But all throughout those darkest moments, God intervened. He made me see what the repercussions will be, how it will greatly affect my kids, especially my daughter who has ADHD. How it will put a load of financial burden on my family.

I know how it feels to be alone and blame yourself. I know that killing yourself is the easiest way to escape the pain and all the tragedies that befall you. But how about the people you left behind? Those who will take care of the people you left? Your kids? Your parents? The people who have looked up to you? The betrayal that they will feel because of what you did will be too heavy for them. Then you have only passed on the pain and misery.

To those who are in emotional crisis and in need of immediate assistance, please contact the one of these:

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(02) 804-HOPE (4673)
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Please choose below the nature of your requests.  Their prayer team is eager to receive them and pray with you.

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Globe         +63-917-358-4832

 

Suicide is never the answer. There are people who are willing to help, just let them know.

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H.E.L.P.

I am tired.

I am exhausted, frustrated and angry.

Just read some chat exchange from 2 people who are close to me, and just as I thought the squabble that has happen is over, I was wrong. Just because I lost my job and I don’t want to discuss it more, just because I had a tax deficit which me myself can’t comprehend, I am finding out that money does talk. I thought it was nothing at first. I thought someone is creating some non-sense but it was already proven before, now, there is something being discussed over the internet by 2 people I trusted.

With this, I am requesting a prayer from people who are able to read this article.

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Please pray for me. Pray that I would have this anger in me put under control. Pray that God give me something to work on, to start with. I need a job, or business. Something to be my financial resource. Please…. I beg of you. PRAY FOR ME.

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