for my daughter

This is for my daughter.

I would want her to know how I love her and how I will strive not just for her future but for her siblings as well.

My daughter has ADHD. She’s a slow learner. She has difficulty remembering things and lessons and all. But she is good with arts. With colors.

We went to a school nearby to have her assessed. I was expecting a bit but turns out, everything has been a rollercoaster. I didn’t see it coming. Or I refused to see it coming. I forgot that it’s not just the school’s responsibility but mine too as a father, as a parent. My daughter was not accepted because of her situation. She can’t read that good, she doesn’t speak that well.

To whoever reads this, I am asking for help. You can visit this site, MEG project for details. You can send me messages on how to help us out. Please.

 

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my daughter has ADHD

I had my daughter diagnosed last October 2014 by a Child Developmental Specialist based in Region 4-A. After that, it was time to learn the ins and outs of taking care of her. I checked the internet on how to take care of my kid. I gathered all that I can in order to help her. Turns out, I still need help outside the internet.

We had to enroll her to a special school. A school that not only will teach her about academics but will also give her the therapy that she needs. We went to the school that the Specialist recommended. It was just about right for her. The surrounding is conducive for her and her learning. But the fee is a bit too much. I do understand why. It’s not an ordinary school. It is an institution that handles kids with ADHD and Autism for one. They not only teach the kids on how to read and write and count, but they also do therapy. Therapy that my daughter needs. We had to enroll her ASAP because she is already aged 6 and she is getting older. She needs to train herself and control herself.

As of the moment, I started a crowd funding group at Facebook. I have to. I have to ask help from friends and some family members about this. I can’t do it alone.

If you want to help, my contact info is on the Facebook page.

The message of Job

The story of Job.

Everybody seemed familiar with the story of this incredible man. A man of faith. A man who has everything then lost it all.

We went to church this morning for the worship service. This is the first time we are attending the Church of Biblical Truth here in our subdivision. I know who the Pastor here, but he was not there when we arrive. Instead, they have a lady who will be speaking. She said that she has prepared a message for the last 2 weeks and God is giving her a different message. She bargained with God. Then Sunday morning came and as she was preparing, the message felt stronger and she had changed the subject of her message. She does not even know why, but she chose to follow God’s direction.

We arrived with 4 kids. We have 2 nephews and my own 2 kids. I was not really expecting God to reveal things to me because Pastor Jess is not around so I just sat down and try to listen to the speaker. When she spoke of how the message has been changed, I was like “Okay. God led her to change it.” Then she revealed the message was of a man who has everything then lost everything and God replaced everything that he lost. That man was Job.

The story revolves around how Job was one of the people that pleased God and how God brags about him. Then Satan came to have a little “challenge” so to speak. They put Job to the test, they were trying to know what will be the man’s decision will be. They took all of his possessions, his slaves, his livestock, his children, and they caused him great pain by giving him some skin disease. One of the prayers I remember from him was “…Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.” Job 1:21 English Standard Version.

Job with his 3 friends
Job with his 3 friends

Why was this relevant to me? Why did I feel that God intentionally made me go to that church this Sunday and had me listen to the speaker? It’s because He wants me to learn and know that He is still in control. God wants me to hear how Job responded. How Job’s life was more miserable and painful than mine. I lost my job, I am in need of a financial resource because my wife is 6 months pregnant and my daughter’s still going to school, debts and bills needed to be paid…

God wanted me to hear that HE IS STILL IN CONTROL. I have forgotten how it feels to be assured by God. I have been complaining and whining. I have questioned God again and again. I know I can question God because He has given me freedom to speak and think on my own. But my line of questioning is more of a literal questions.

I have lost some of my faith along the way and I know how it is to go against God and be under His grace. I have learned how to suffer and accept the fact that I have sinned. And the story of Job made me realize, God does what He knows is best for me. Now I can never question His wisdom, but I may ask for His grace to be with me in times like this.

After God answered Job, He blessed Job more. God gave him what he lost and more. All that Job did was to trust in the Lord. TRUST IN THE LORD.

My story so far.

 

FAITH.

I lost my job. I was trying to find one and I have not yet got any. My wife is currently pregnant to our 3rd child, my daughter’s tuition is not yet fully paid, she is still to graduate this March, we have some bills and debt to pay and I don’t know where to go for financial aide. I am so confused and frustrated. Then I had a glimpse of hope… one of the companies I applied for last year contacted me for an interview. I went there hoping for a shot at having a job again and support my family’s needs. But I failed. I failed the first 2 tests… typing and some quiz. DARN IT! How did I fail them?! I passed them last year! I was filled with questions…

I went home. Caught a bus and sat down. I looked at what’s in front of me. The wide road that will take me home… Then I noticed the verse near the driver’s rear view mirror… Jeremiah 29:11.

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It made me remember the promise of God from a long time ago. God indeed never fails, although we do. God has plans to prosper ME and to give ME hope and a future, never to harm me. I guess all I have to do now is really trust His ways.

God, I really need some assistance from You.

trails from the rivers of tears

they were left behind,
they had faith but was left behind.

they cried for help,
they cried for help to no avail.

they were scared.
they were scared and now alone.

they were cast aways,
they were cast aways and loners.

they were branded,
they were branded as traitors of faith, backsliders.

but Jesus came,
but Jesus came and cried with them.

He cried and wept,
for He knows how painful it is,
fallen angels…

 

written: October 18, 2012
Gabs Narazo
© 2012 [bLURrED publikation]

Lady Gaga, the LGBT and the Christians

Her name is Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta, famously known as Lady Gaga, is in the country right now to perform a 2 night concert at the SM Mall of Asia or MOA. This is actually the 2nd time she is performing in the Philippines. And before she arrives, I think she has already read or heard about the protests of some “Religious” groups here in the Philippines. They don’t want her to have her concert here because they want her to “respect our faith, stop the blasphemy.” But organizers from Ovation Productions said they respect the beliefs of critics but promised that the performances “will not pose a threat to their sense of morality and conduct.

She was famous for her songs “Poker Face”, “Bad Romance”, “Telephone” and “Alejandro” just to name a few. And also some rumors surrounding her sexuality. But we can’t deny that she is also famous for her sense of fashion and the songs that she sang. Alejandro has a very, very controversial video. According to Wikipedia, “’Alejandro’ created a media uproar after the release of the video because of its use of religious imagery. One of the most discussed scenes in the video was when Gaga, dressed in a latex nun outfit, swallowed rosary beads. The Catholic League criticized the video for its use of religious imagery, accusing Gaga of “playing a Madonna copy-cat”. Moncia Herrara said of the mayhem: “[Alejandro] courts religious controversy in much the same way that Madonna’s ‘Like a “Prayer’ video once did, intermingling Catholic imagery like rosary beads and nun’s robes with sexual cues.” In an interview with MTV, Klein explained that the religious symbolism was not meant to denote anything negative, but to represent Gaga’s battle between the darker and lighter forces. Thus at the end of the film, she is portrayed again in her nun’s habit. Klein added that the significance behind her mouth and eyes disappearing was “because she is withdrawing her senses from the world of evil and going inward towards prayer and contemplation.” He added that the scene where Gaga devours the rosary beads was her act of theophany, the desire to consume the body of God, the rosary being symbolic of the Holy.” You can check the link.

Why am I writing about her? It is because of her relationship and stand with LGBT or lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender. Lady Gaga is a strong supporter of this group. According to Wikipedia, besides her career in music, Gaga has also contributed to various charities. Among others is:

Don’t get me wrong. I am not a fan of Lady Gaga. But with all the protests against her in this country, we have labeled our country “THE ONLY CHRISTIAN NATION IN ASIA”. Have we reached out to the LGBT? Or we are like the many who judges them because they are members of LGBT? My previous post has somehow become related to this one. Christians attacking other people because they are not Believers. We condemn people and say that they are Anti-Christ and all, that they are the abolition of the human race, etc.

I have nothing against Lady Gaga, but I don’t condone her acts and the way she sings and her songs. What I am concerned of, is my fellow Believers. Are we becoming more judgmental? I found an article from USAToday with this headline: “Study: Youth see Christians as judgmental, anti-gay.” We are not becoming light and salt of this world. We are not doing our jobs. We are becoming the antagonists of the world, which should not be. We need to be the people who dispenses GRACE my brothers and sisters. That is our function. That is why we are here. It was said, “hate the sin, love the sinner”. I know we need to draw the line on this issue, but then, we need to draw them while we pray for God’s wisdom.

Christians on hot waters

I tried to get more info on what Manny Pacquiao said about gays and this is what I got from his official website, “Manny Pacquiao was recently quoted in the USAToday as invoking the old testament and recited Leviticus 20:13, saying: “If a man lies with a man as one lies with a woman, both of them have done what is detestable. They must be put to death; their blood will be on their own heads.” In the same conversation Manny explained his feelings in regards to same sex marriage which were printed in an earlier article today. “God only expects man and woman to be together and to be legally married, only if they are in love with each other. “It should not be of the same sex so as to adulterate the altar of matrimony, like in the days of Sodom and Gomorrah of Old.” In what appears to be Manny Pacquiao’s official feelings on the subject, let us just say that Pacquiao’s beliefs are not the beliefs, of this writer or the staff of MP8.ph.” (source, http://tiny.cc/2loeew)

I am a Born-Again Christian too. Although I had been on the crossroads of my faith, I know what it is to believe and to say and when to say them. I will not comment on what Manny Pacquiao said, because like the bible says, DO NOT JUDGE… but what I will say is more on expressing our beliefs and standing by them BUT not spreading hate or judgment.

I have already read a book entitled, What’s So Amazing About Grace? written by Philip Yancey. And one of the common mistakes Christians made is to spread hatred rather than grace. To quote Philip’s words, “Christians were becoming known mainly for what they were against: pornography, homosexuality, abortion, etc. That disturbed me, as I see grace as one of the great, often untapped, powers of the universe that God has asked us to set loose.” Admit it or not, most of the Believers tend to forget what Jesus did in the New Testament. In Mark 2:15-17, “15 While Jesus was having dinner at Levi’s house, many tax collectors and sinners were eating with him and his disciples, for there were many who followed him. 16 When the teachers of the law who were Pharisees saw him eating with the sinners and tax collectors, they asked his disciples: “Why does he eat with tax collectors and sinners?” 17 On hearing this, Jesus said to them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.” ” here, Jesus MINGLED with the sinners and tax collectors.

We need to be the one to spread grace on this world, but it seems that we do forget that.  We tend to forget that the hospital is where the sick go, that the bed is where the tired rests. We just want the world to know what is right and that there should be justice, which is not wrong. But our priority is point people to Jesus.

Not all good-intentions are easy. Sometimes, good-intentions needs to be delayed. Words have already hurt people. Let us avoid hurting them more by quoting the bible to get our points across. It has and still is being used by a lot of religious groups.

And last, one of the great philosophers said what I think is one of the cautionary words we should take VERY SERIOUSLY. It is the words of Mahatma Gandhi: “I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.