Sana Maulit Muli

Sana maulit muli
Ang mga oras nating nakaraan
Bakit nagkaganito
Naglaho na ba ang pag-ibig mo
Sana maulit muli
Sana bigyan ng pansin ang himig ko
Kahapon, bukas, ngayon
Tanging wala nang ibang mahal

Two years ago, a fandom was born. It was weird because I got caught in it. I enjoyed it too. I loved the chemistry being demonstrated by two characters that played it well. So well that I am one of those hurting. Two years.

Then last November 26, 2017 the Open Letter happened. I understand what she was trying to say. But with all the presumptions that her fans will hate her, only added fuel to the fire. A lot of the fans got hurt. Felt the pain. Alden was nowhere to be seen. The following day, Alden got hospitalized. The fandom was in turmoil over a simple letter of That Girl. I myself felt that strong shockwave of disbelief. I felt that they lied to me. Made me feel emotions that I have longed forgotten. I HATE IT!

Then I realized… they were just actors playing their parts.

Days have passed and there were members of the ALDUB Nation who were suffering more pain and betrayal. AND peeps helped each other to recover, to stop the bleeding, to make them stand up again. There we also people who have expressed wanting to commit suicide. Some of us had to intervene.

Ibalik ang kahapon
Sandaling di mapapantayan
Huwag sana nating itapon
Pagmamahal na tapat
Kung ako’y nagkamali minsan
Di na ba mapagbibigyan
O giliw, dinggin mo ang nais ko

More days have passed. Slowly, hate turned into bitterness. I looked more into what I can do to help the other members of the ADN. Reaching out to those hurting. Trying to console people who were trying to make sense of what happened.

Kung kaya kong iwanan ka
Di na sana aasa pa…
Kung kaya kong umiwas na
Di na sana lalapit pa…
Kung kaya ko sana

In the end, we are just fans taken to a ride by two people who we thought are real. But ADN only have ADN now. Like one of the people said, “This too, shall pass.”

Mahal pa rin kita…
O giliw… O giliw…




An open letter to ADN

To whom it may concern,

I was an AlDub fanatic. A die hard fan. WAS. I have stopped watching Kalyeserye for 2 or 3 weeks now. I have been losing appetite for it but what triggered my total surrender was when Divina was flirting with Jake. They lost me there. Yes, I have been telling people from AlDub Nation (ADN) na walang “moving on”o “kalma”. I think it backfired.

Ayaw ko nang manood kasi it seems it lost it’s essence in me. It’s my own point of view. Then, Divina has three (3) conditions for KS-A bago nya sagutin ito. Why would you give conditions para mahalin ang isang tao?! Why!?

These are just two of the reasons why I gave up on AlDub. I know there will be bashers who will say that I am this or that. Pero I would like to say that KS-Alden has given enough to prove his love for Divina who turns out to be a flirt. Then Lola Nidora, out of the three lola’s, got the nerve to do that tirade, blaming the ADN for “rumors” and “assumptions” na si Divina naman ang may gawa in the first place.

I have also observed that a lot of the men who used to be fans are now gone. They’re now back to where they used to be. When KS was never there. Unlike before, even men would be the ones to open the TVs to watch KS. But now, I am not sure they even bother. I know I don’t.

I am not saying that ADN follow me. All I am saying is, I’ve had it. Was just too much a burden to watch them now. But Maine and Alden/RJ is a totally different story. Them, I will hope to end up together. And it’s all I can do. Hope.

Thank you.

Sincerely yours,
Former AlDub fan

Delayed Gratification: God Gave Me You

Okay, first and foremost I am not sure why I am writing this. I was supposed to write something depressing, about hopelessness, loneliness, madness, bitterness and misery. But I have been affected… by AlDub.

Yes, AlDub. Somehow, it changed my life. I have now learned to love Mondays. I have learned to smile again. A far cry from where I was before. So, enough of all this. I have a reason why my title is the way it is.

Delayed gratification. Wikipedia says “Delayed gratification, or deferred gratification, is the ability to resist the temptation for an immediate reward and wait for a later reward. Generally, delayed gratification is associated with resisting a smaller but more immediate reward in order to receive a larger or more enduring reward later.”

Delayed gratification is not the suspension or stoppage of gratification but the postponement of it. Because you know that in the long run, you will more, much, much more of what you need and want.

I have to learn that the hard way. Again, enough of me.

AlDub. I was waiting for a bus to take me home from Buendia EDSA when this thought came to me, “What if Alden came just in time for Yaya Dub on her first wedding to Frankie? Ano’ng mga consequences nun? Ano’ng pro’s?” I myself got intrigued by my own question. Ano nga kaya?

I have (carefully) analyzed it while seated in the bus:

  1. Lola Nidora – first and foremost, she would become the “enemy of the state.” Yes, lalabas kasi syang masamang lola who hinders the happiness of others. We would have not learned and heard her precious Words of Wisdom about life, love and others. Wala sanang “Tamang Panahon” ngayon kasi all we would have wanted is for her to suffer. Malamang, marami pang sumpa.
  2. Frankie – of course, part of the Top 10 Most Hated people on earth, as long as AlDub Nation is concerned. That would be though to overcome.
  3. Alden – he would have ended up just acting and playing the part of AlDub. Just that. Acting. Making people feel the “kilig” and the shallowness of it. AlDub will soon be broken. He will just make the ladies feel “used”.
  4. Maine aka Yaya Dub – she might have been partnered with someone else by now. Wala na kasing kilig. She might have been bitter kasi Alden let her fall but was not there to catch her. She may not have lasted long.
  5. Kalyeserye as a whole – just a fab. Fans would have not have reached those records that we, as an AlDub Nation, would’ve attained. No 25.6 million tweets. This would have been just a waste of time and energy. Walang kwentang serye na sabi nga ng kapitbahay, “dumaan lang yan.” Walang saysay at just like the other series sa Pinas, baduy na after a month or so.
  6. AlDub Nation – san na tayo pupulutin? Sa kangkungan. Walang lessons learned, walang happiness, walang McDo na kilalang AlDub meal, walang TNT tvc, walang 555 Sardines, walang O+ — na lahat na-enjoy natin.
  7. Eat Bulaga – balik sa dati. Natatabunan na ng kapitbahay natin kasi may Pasta na sila eh.

Come to think of it, the time that Yaya Dub collapsed and Alden arriving some minutes later was a blessing a disguise. Alden was supposed to grab Yaya Dub at magtatanan na sila. What will that teach our kids? Na okay lang magtanan? That waiting for the right time is no longer warranted? That it is okay for our daughters to settle for a second-best man? I would have had my Unica Hija stopped watching Kalyeserye if that was the case.

By the way, the reason I attached God Gave Me You on the title is I firmly believe that God is writing their story. Imagine if Alden came to grab Yaya Dub. But no, God did not allow something so beautiful to end that way. It has to be grand. It has to be EPIC.

Alden has to learn. He had to be sure of his feelings. He has to cry. Learn that things are not just handed to him, that he has to earn them. Especially Maine’s heart. Hindi pwedeng hinog sa pilit. Hindi pwedeng madaliin ang lahat. Alden is now better from when I saw him before. Hindi na sya takot ilaglag. Nilaglag pa nga nya sarili nya sa Sunday PinaSaya eh. He has grown to be a man.

Maine also grew, and bloomed. She can now somehow control her feelings and her reactions whenever Alden is showing his dimples and all the fansigns. She is now more beautiful and more attractive. Masarap syang tingnan lalo, no malice. Do I need to say more?

I understand how delayed gratification makes one person feel. Deprived. But in the long run, it will be all worth it.

And as Maine once said, “after AlDub, it will be MaiDen.”