i have been here before,
and i am here again.
that familiar road to suffering and
i have to get myself so tired just to sleep,
i have to be so hungry just to eat.
i have to be so drunk
just to forget you a while.
my heart has been ripped open,
then was scattered all over the garbage,
and i was buried alive.
my will has been broken down
and i can’t seem to think of anyone to help me but you.
but you’re the one who hurt me this much.
is it more justifiable if i die
due to heart attack rather than
die of a heart break?
or am i so pitiful in your eyes,
because i lost my sanity over you?
i’ve driven myself to the point
where my sanity has mixed with pain,
pain that is unimaginable.
pain that i never saw coming.
written: June 22, 2009 Gabs Narazo © 2009 [soulprojekt publikation]