All Day Crap.

  • 4:36 am. My wife woke me up at 4:36 am so I can prepare for work. I usually wake up at this time to prepare for work and leave at around 5:30 or so.
  • At times, I should be at South Luzon Expressway when the clock hits 6am.
  • I usually arrive Pasay Road not later than 7:30am.
  • Around 7:40 to 8am, I should be riding the UV Express going to One Campus where I work for the biggest search engine in the world.

But today on January 17, 2018, something happened that me and my wave mates never expected to happen all of a sudden. Our schedule changed. Since Monday this week, we have been scheduled at 9am to 6pm. I know it is a 9 hour shift and it is fine with us. And to think that I also am enduring a painful sore on my left feet which gives me pain from my feet up. That gives me hard time walking around. Now, schedule changes for me is okay. I have been working in call centers before and it’s fine by me.

BUT this time, this one, is totally different. This schedule took effect TODAY, January 17, 2018. While I was on my way to work! Riding a bus! At 5:40am! 

So I arrived in Makati City at around 7am, rode a UV Express van to One Campus and was at the office around 8am. Of course I was irritated and furious. I could have slept some more, take my daughter to school while my wife rests, spent some time with my kids, etc. BUT NO! Now I will have to stay here at the office until 10pm and probably be at home by 12mn.

THAT IS MIDNIGHT!

Sorry, I am still so frustrated about this. I really need to work on my own business so I won’t be played by some thug who thinks that it’s okay to just say “sorry” to people who wakes up at 3am just to be in the office by 9am. I did not even receive a phone call from the people who should have made the contact. In fact, the person who called me was a wave mate who is already on her way to go back to their house.

I am still irritated. Frustrated.

Geez. I just hope that this won’t happen again next time. For real.

 

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Sana Maulit Muli

Sana maulit muli
Ang mga oras nating nakaraan
Bakit nagkaganito
Naglaho na ba ang pag-ibig mo
Sana maulit muli
Sana bigyan ng pansin ang himig ko
Kahapon, bukas, ngayon
Tanging wala nang ibang mahal
 

Two years ago, a fandom was born. It was weird because I got caught in it. I enjoyed it too. I loved the chemistry being demonstrated by two characters that played it well. So well that I am one of those hurting. Two years.

Then last November 26, 2017 the Open Letter happened. I understand what she was trying to say. But with all the presumptions that her fans will hate her, only added fuel to the fire. A lot of the fans got hurt. Felt the pain. Alden was nowhere to be seen. The following day, Alden got hospitalized. The fandom was in turmoil over a simple letter of That Girl. I myself felt that strong shockwave of disbelief. I felt that they lied to me. Made me feel emotions that I have longed forgotten. I HATE IT!

Then I realized… they were just actors playing their parts.

Days have passed and there were members of the ALDUB Nation who were suffering more pain and betrayal. AND peeps helped each other to recover, to stop the bleeding, to make them stand up again. There we also people who have expressed wanting to commit suicide. Some of us had to intervene.

Ibalik ang kahapon
Sandaling di mapapantayan
Huwag sana nating itapon
Pagmamahal na tapat
Kung ako’y nagkamali minsan
Di na ba mapagbibigyan
O giliw, dinggin mo ang nais ko

More days have passed. Slowly, hate turned into bitterness. I looked more into what I can do to help the other members of the ADN. Reaching out to those hurting. Trying to console people who were trying to make sense of what happened.

Kung kaya kong iwanan ka
Di na sana aasa pa…
Kung kaya kong umiwas na
Di na sana lalapit pa…
Kung kaya ko sana
 

In the end, we are just fans taken to a ride by two people who we thought are real. But ADN only have ADN now. Like one of the people said, “This too, shall pass.”

Mahal pa rin kita…
O giliw… O giliw…

 

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Surviving The Night

Thoughts of suicide creeps in. I had to stop listening to Linkin Park for the night because I am getting scared of the images flashing inside head. Scenes of where I am seated beside our double deck bed, where I am strangled. In between my 2 boys and my wife and daughter. 

No. IT WILL NOT HAPPEN. I know the negative impact it will have on my family. The trauma it will cause my kids. The blame. The questions that will never be answered.

I also happen to know that heaven will not and will never accept suicides. There are things that I need answers that I can only ask God once I am in heaven.

So I sat, prayed. Surrendered every thoughts running in my head and decided to write it down. I also replaced the songs with worship songs to somehow, remind and enforce to me that God is still in control.

No. It will never happen because I am a child of God. 

Help Wanted:

I don’t know what to say. I need roughly Php 30000.00 for my 2 kids’ education. The amount is just for the enrollment. It does not cover the full amount of the tuition fee for the year, and the balance that we still owe one school.

My eldest kid, Kae, has ADHD so she  requires Special Education. It is not cheap. The school that we once inquired to has a tuition fee amounting to almost P130K a year! Thank God we found a school that somehow, Kae learned to read and write. Although she still struggles at times, she was able to learn. But now, her education is currently unsure. We are asked to pay the full balance for last year amounting to P20K which I don’t have.

My 2nd kid, Kas, is an incoming Grade 2 student. Kas and Kae have 2 different schools because we were unable to pay his full balance. He is still struggling with his studies but I know he is a smart boy.

We tried to make both ends meet last year. I was working and the pay isn’t that good. Then, mid-August I quit work to put up my own business which is what we have now. But we’re just starting up. I am not sure how we can pay. All I know as of the moment is God is in control and He can give me the amount we badly needed.

I also know that God will and can use people to fulfill what is needed. I just have to trust His wisdom.

Kae doesn’t want to stay in Samar where my family is right now because of the vacation. Kar wants to stay and study there but I don’t want to. I am praying that God will give us the necessary amount so we can have our kids enrolled this school year. I can’t even start a GoFundMe because I am not in the US or other countries that it exists.

By the way, Kae’s therapy has also been stopped because of lack of fund. Php 12/month is not easy on the pocket.

IF you want to help me with this, my account info (last time I checked, this is still active):

Bank name: METROBANK

Account name: RIESNEL N. GABION

Account number: 355-3-355-63376-5

Or using PayPal.Me link: https://www.paypal.me/GabNarazo

Palawan Trip

Palawan Trip

Palawan is one if not the best Island in the world. It first became the most beautiful island in the world last 2015. Then it became the most beautiful island in the world last 2016. I never really considered myself a traveler. But thinking about it I have already been to some places here in the Philippines. For example in Laguna alone I have already been to towns namely, Liliw, Nagcarlan, Sta. Cruz, Calauan. To name a few. I have been to BatangasTanauan, Nasugbu, Lian, Balayan, Sto. Tomas. To Quezon province – Lucena, Mulanay, Macalelon, Catanuan. I have been to Rizal province – Taytay, Antipolo. Been to Cavite – Tagaytay, Bailen. I have also been to Cebu, Leyte, Northern Samar, Pampanga, Pangasinan, Baguio, parts of La Union and Bulacan.

Last April 10th to the 17th, 2017 though, I had a pleasure of being able to travel to Palawan and marvel at how God made this province. Palawan is a gem. It has been voted as the most beautiful island in the world for years – 2013, 2016. Palawan has some of the most finest sands in the world. It has white beaches that can rival Boracay. Palawan has El Nido, Coron and Puerto Princesa – just to name a few.

On our first day in Palawan we went to Honda Bay for 3 island hopping activities. We went to starfish Island then to Luli Island then to Cowrie Island. Each island has its own to offer. Then for the first night we had to tricycles to bring us to fireflies Farm. Weaver told of how fireflies benefit our environment and how fireflies are indicator of a healthy environment.

Palawan also has one of the Seven Wonders of the World which is the Subterranean River. This is where we went for our second day. It took us roughly  3 hours  to get there. When we got to the Subterranean River it was magnificently awesome. The river has 12 kilometers total, but only 1.5 kilometers is allowed for visitors. The rest is for researchers from Italy. We have been told that the river is cold but we are advised not to dip our hands because the fish might bite our hands or fingers. Subterranean River also boasts some of the best stalactites and stalagmites that you will ever see.

We also went to El Nido and we stayed at a hotel whom I will not name. My personal experience with El Nido is a satisfying one. Although I have issues with Wi-Fi and the water pressure which seems to be an island issue, I still would say that I am happy with El Nido. El Nido has a lot of different islands that you can visit and that you can explore. you can also go snorkeling, deep-diving and a whole lot more. Just be sure to wear a rash guard so that you will not get sunburned. There is also some in Island activities in El Nido. We have been told that we can go rappelling, rock climbing and other stuff. But we were unable to do any of the in Island activities.

After the El Nido activities we went back to Puerto Princesa for our last day which includes City tour. It is where tourists go within Puerto Princesa City. We went to Butterfly farm where we saw different species of butterflies and other places that I have already forgotten. After eating our lunch at Nicnocs, we headed back to the hotel to finally get ready for our flight to Manila.

I miss Palawan.

Healer

Healer

I have heard this song several times already. The message it has back then still rings true today. GOD IS OUR HEALER. This particular blog was on my draft since I can remember. I checked it and it seems a good one. So I have modified the content and will post it afterwards. The composer of the song is Mike Guglielmucci. Sure, almost everybody in the planet knows what he did. But does it really matter? Also, he already repented and he is to deal it with God, not us. Why can’t we do what Jesus said? So when they continued asking Him, He raised Himself up and said to them, “He who is without sin among you, let him throw a stone at her first.” John 8:7. Me? I will not even think of judging the guy for one, I am not Jesus to worry about that. Second, I myself am a sinner that needs forgiveness. Third, we are not tasked to do the judging.

Michael has sinned not against me but against God so, let God deal with him. We can only pray for the man. If he is sincere, God will restore him. I believe he is sincere and it has been years already since this incident. Enough of the judgement.

I will just enjoy the song.

 

Healer

You hold my very moment

You calm my raging seas

You walk with me through fire

And heal all my disease

I trust in You, I trust in You

 

And I believe You’re my healer

I believe You are all I need

I believe

 

And I believe You’re my portion

I believe You’re more than enough for me

Jesus You’re all I need

 

Nothing is impossible for You

Nothing is impossible

Nothing is impossible for You

You hold my world in Your hands

Rovics Hotel, El Nido Xp

Rovics Hotel, El Nido Xp

We have arrived at El Nido, Palawan for a part of our family get away. It was April 14, 2017. We will be here until April 16, 2017. We have successfully endured a 6 hour drive from Puerto Princesa to this place. After our lunch, we all fell asleep. After that, not much has happen. Still enjoying except for some glitches which is part of the adventure. One of the things that I am looking for right now is the church to attend to this coming Sunday. By the way, I am writing this on a Good Friday’s evening.

I am not well versed with Rovics Hotel where we are staying right now. But, it doesn’t have a strong cable service and it has weak Internet connection. Even the outlets seem weak. That is just my first observation so please bear with me. I will throw the dirt first so the good side will have to be unquestioned. Some of what I have observed are the doors, the glass doors, the hand rails and the design of the steel guards and the bathroom locks.

What I observed…


The first thing that greets you at the lobby is a written sign that reads “Sorry, no Wi-Fi access”. It might be a thing in the island itself. There are times that we can have Wi-Fi but we have to be at the lobby just to have connection. When we got to our room, the room was ok, but the aircon remote needs replacement. The TV and the remote seems to be uncoordinated with each other. You have to press the on button at least twice, or more, just to open it. Then you will only have few channels to choose from unless you specifically know what channel you want. The veranda is great but the steel guard needs to be modified because toddlers can climb over the steel guards due to its steps.


There is the restroom lock issue too. The hotel management might have found that changing the locks are too expensive so they just added some lock on the door. The water pressure is weak, given that it is an island so I ignore it. But it has a foul smell, that I am not sure where it comes from. The door to the veranda can also be opened by my 2 year old kid if he forces it. Lock not secured.


Breakfast buffet is great, except for their milk in a box that causes mess. The milk is used for coffee but they could’ve bought a milk dispenser or something to avoid the unnecessary spills.


Before leaving for our island hopping, I asked that our room be cleaned. When we got back from our whole day activity and was already inside the room, I noticed that the floor was somehow wet and sticky. There were new towels but the ones I placed on the floor are still there and they hung it. It took over an hour for the floor to be completely dry. Which is not good because by then, kids have already run to and fro and dirt already sticks to their feet which they also be putting in bed.


I also don’t know if it is a normal practice that when guests are out for a scheduled island activities and they will check out that day, the staff would just take the guests bags and put it at the lobby. Maybe they can modify this practice because we had to rinse too to remove the sand off of us and change clothes. We did so on their pension house that has a really weak water pressure that you can’t use the shower.



Now the good part… 

hmmm. Not sure. There must be something but I guess I was too busy enjoying the island activities that I didn’t noticed it.