What does it take to follow God’s will?
In Jonah 1:3, it says that
But Jonah ran away from the Lord and headed for Tarshish. He went down to Joppa, where he found a ship bound for that port. After paying the fare, he went aboard and sailed for Tarshish to flee from the Lord.
Jonah TRIED running away from God’s order. He was supposed to go to Nineveh where he is set to proclaim God’s words.
Now, on a personal level, how to I follow God’s will?
I have seen tons of how to’s on this subject and I really don’t have the guts to say that “this is how you follow God’s will” video.
As of the moment, all I want is to hear God’s voice telling me what He wants me to do.
My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.
I do not want to run away again from God’s will. I have already done that before. Not once.
I do not want to lose the presence of God in my life just because my pride got hurt a bit. I am more “educated” now than before. I have more to lose now. People have already trusted me. I do not want to be watching again from afar.
God has already laid out His plan, promises, and all.
For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God.
2 Corinthians 1:20
God knows what is best.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
No. I am not letting go this time.
It’s rare that I write 2 succeeding blogs in 1 day, let alone 1 month. But after writing what I wrote earlier lambasting and ranting about age and leadership, I have now calmed down. Plus a shot of Korean wine and coffee helped. Not sure how but it gave me headache.
Seriously though, I led the Praise and Worship earlier today, January 28, 2018, and our last song was, guess it… Yes, JESUS AT THE CENTER by Israel & New Breed.
I was able to think clearly after 2 large cups of coffee and a shot of alcohol and it made me realized something. Is Jesus at my center?
Part of the song says:
Nothing else matters,
nothing in this world will do.
Jesus You’re the center,
and everything revolves around you.
While writing this blog, I am playing in constant repetition the 2 versions of the song.
Jesus be the center of my life,
Jesus be the center of my life
From beginning to the end
It will always be,
It’s always been You Jesus
I know I’ve made a mistake of taking things and turn it into one big mess but, I guess the good thing about it is, me – questioning my own faith and where it’s foundation is laid. I started checking my heart and praying to God to correct my feelings. I asked one Pastor to pray for me because, at the end of the day, I know it is my pride that is hurting more than anything. I just hope I am not too late.
From my heart to heavens
Jesus be the center,
It’s all about You,
Yes it’s all about You
I asked God for forgiveness. I asked Him to give me a servant’s heart. I asked God for help.
Jesus, be the center of my everything.
Is age a criteria for leading a team? Do I have to question someone just because of his or her age? I don’t think so. But, if someone higher than you makes it seem that you’re no longer qualified because of your age, then there is a problem.
I have had a history with leaders who looks at me and thinks they’re better than me. Good leaders don’t think their people isn’t qualified just because of age. But heck, do I have to care? I will just lay low, and quit the team.
- 4:36 am. My wife woke me up at 4:36 am so I can prepare for work. I usually wake up at this time to prepare for work and leave at around 5:30 or so.
- At times, I should be at South Luzon Expressway when the clock hits 6am.
- I usually arrive Pasay Road not later than 7:30am.
- Around 7:40 to 8am, I should be riding the UV Express going to One Campus where I work for the biggest search engine in the world.
But today on January 17, 2018, something happened that me and my wave mates never expected to happen all of a sudden. Our schedule changed. Since Monday this week, we have been scheduled at 9am to 6pm. I know it is a 9 hour shift and it is fine with us. And to think that I also am enduring a painful sore on my left feet which gives me pain from my feet up. That gives me hard time walking around. Now, schedule changes for me is okay. I have been working in call centers before and it’s fine by me.
BUT this time, this one, is totally different. This schedule took effect TODAY, January 17, 2018. While I was on my way to work! Riding a bus! At 5:40am!
So I arrived in Makati City at around 7am, rode a UV Express van to One Campus and was at the office around 8am. Of course I was irritated and furious. I could have slept some more, take my daughter to school while my wife rests, spent some time with my kids, etc. BUT NO! Now I will have to stay here at the office until 10pm and probably be at home by 12mn.
THAT IS MIDNIGHT!
Sorry, I am still so frustrated about this. I really need to work on my own business so I won’t be played by some thug who thinks that it’s okay to just say “sorry” to people who wakes up at 3am just to be in the office by 9am. I did not even receive a phone call from the people who should have made the contact. In fact, the person who called me was a wave mate who is already on her way to go back to their house.
I am still irritated. Frustrated.
Geez. I just hope that this won’t happen again next time. For real.