Sana Maulit Muli

Sana maulit muli
Ang mga oras nating nakaraan
Bakit nagkaganito
Naglaho na ba ang pag-ibig mo
Sana maulit muli
Sana bigyan ng pansin ang himig ko
Kahapon, bukas, ngayon
Tanging wala nang ibang mahal
 

Two years ago, a fandom was born. It was weird because I got caught in it. I enjoyed it too. I loved the chemistry being demonstrated by two characters that played it well. So well that I am one of those hurting. Two years.

Then last November 26, 2017 the Open Letter happened. I understand what she was trying to say. But with all the presumptions that her fans will hate her, only added fuel to the fire. A lot of the fans got hurt. Felt the pain. Alden was nowhere to be seen. The following day, Alden got hospitalized. The fandom was in turmoil over a simple letter of That Girl. I myself felt that strong shockwave of disbelief. I felt that they lied to me. Made me feel emotions that I have longed forgotten. I HATE IT!

Then I realized… they were just actors playing their parts.

Days have passed and there were members of the ALDUB Nation who were suffering more pain and betrayal. AND peeps helped each other to recover, to stop the bleeding, to make them stand up again. There we also people who have expressed wanting to commit suicide. Some of us had to intervene.

Ibalik ang kahapon
Sandaling di mapapantayan
Huwag sana nating itapon
Pagmamahal na tapat
Kung ako’y nagkamali minsan
Di na ba mapagbibigyan
O giliw, dinggin mo ang nais ko

More days have passed. Slowly, hate turned into bitterness. I looked more into what I can do to help the other members of the ADN. Reaching out to those hurting. Trying to console people who were trying to make sense of what happened.

Kung kaya kong iwanan ka
Di na sana aasa pa…
Kung kaya kong umiwas na
Di na sana lalapit pa…
Kung kaya ko sana
 

In the end, we are just fans taken to a ride by two people who we thought are real. But ADN only have ADN now. Like one of the people said, “This too, shall pass.”

Mahal pa rin kita…
O giliw… O giliw…

 

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